Ooooooh! Hurt/comfort for the holidays! What a wonderful treat! :-) It was both fascinating and heart-breaking to discover why Lester didn't like to bottom. The panic attack, flashbacks and emotional response seemed like a realistic reaction given what he'd been through in the past. Somehow, I'm not surprised that Lester would insist on trying to conquer his fears this way and prevent those bastards from winning. And it was touching to see how concerned and gentle Ryan was. I love how supportive he was and that he felt Lester's trust was the best Christmas present he could receive.